THANK YOU
First, I would like to give praise and honor to God my Father without whom none of this would be possible. I praise Your splendid Name for all that I am comes from you. Psalm 139:13-14 says: "For you [O God] formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well."
Second, I want to thank all those who have contributed or agreed to contribute their testimony for this website. Your boldness in sharing your testimony will not only give you a voice but, it will help and encourage our sisters who are afraid to speak out.
Third, I must thank my beautiful, amazing daughter, Nicole, who brilliantly depicted my vision for this website banner in a most breathtaking way.
Fourth, I want to thank all you ladies out there, who have taken OR is about to take that step to obtain further healing, through the Wounded Heart Group. May you continue to heal and claim the victory that is completely yours through our Lord.
ABOUT ME
My name is Evelyn, and in, 2005, I became a born again believer in Jesus Christ.
I grew up in a Christian home, but my perception of God was that He was a mean vindictive God who punishes you for doing wrong.
As a result of this belief, I spent most of my life feeling and thinking that I was not a very good person because if I were, God would have stopped my abusers from sexually abusing me.
The idea that God was a loving God was very foreign to me and I saw the way I lived as normal and did not realize I was broken, wounded or, that I had a very distorted perception of God and life.
In fact, before I committed my life to Christ in 2005, I use to make fun of and condemn anyone who called themselves ‘born again Christians’.
I use to say things like "how can you crawl back into your mother’s womb"; "you’re brainwashed into believing all this Christian fanatic junk". Imagine my surprise, when I began studying the Bible and found Jesus answering this very question on being born again (see John 3:1-5).
What drove me to becoming a born again believer?
I wasn’t consciously looking to become a ‘born again believer’. It was a period in my life when I was very depressed; nothing made sense anymore. I was angry all the time. I didn’t understand why I always felt like a little girl standing outside the glass window, looking at all the beautiful people inside having fun, wanting to be part of it, but, not knowing how to be invited in, not knowing what to do to fit in.
To compensate for the feelings of never fitting in, I became a very angry, arrogant person. In fact, I gained the reputation as someone most wouldn’t want to tangle with. These were not good qualities to have because it meant, people began avoiding me; I missed out on job promotions and relationships that I could have enjoyed had I possessed a better attitude.
In January 2005, I began feeling that there had to be more to life, especially when I saw others having fun and hearing them talk about a loving God. That same month, I began searching the Bible for answers because I felt I had nothing to lose.
This quest for something more or better caused me to realize that I was a phony Christian.
I was always doing what was right, going through the motions, making up my own rules to suit my beliefs of the moment, all the while, hiding the fact that I was depressed, unhappy and joyless, just to name a few of the problems I was hiding or in denial about.
It was through studying the Bible, asking questions and, struggling with God on those issues that did not make sense, that I began to realize that my perceptions and beliefs were very distorted especially, when I began obtaining answers and healing on some of the things I was struggling with.
The most prominent struggles were the lies I believed. Lies that said “I cannot depend on others, the only person I can count on is myself because no one really cares or loves me enough to be there for me.” {“John 10:10 (NLT) The thief’s purpose is to steal and kill and destroy. My purpose is to give them a rich and satisfying life”.}
Consequently, my quest for something more or better led me to a place, where I was able to publicly declare Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior and to acknowledge my belief that God raised Him from the dead.
As a result, it was because of this new found declaration and belief that I was able to openly and publicly testify about my born-again experience during an act of water baptism on May 1st, 2005.
My reason for being water baptized was to portray an outward sign and testimony of an inward change. It was a symbol that I was ready to die to my old life and ready to embrace a new one in Christ Jesus.(Galatians 2:20; Romans 6:4).
For a more detailed summary of my testimony please go to the Testimony section of this webpage.
First, I would like to give praise and honor to God my Father without whom none of this would be possible. I praise Your splendid Name for all that I am comes from you. Psalm 139:13-14 says: "For you [O God] formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well."
Second, I want to thank all those who have contributed or agreed to contribute their testimony for this website. Your boldness in sharing your testimony will not only give you a voice but, it will help and encourage our sisters who are afraid to speak out.
Third, I must thank my beautiful, amazing daughter, Nicole, who brilliantly depicted my vision for this website banner in a most breathtaking way.
Fourth, I want to thank all you ladies out there, who have taken OR is about to take that step to obtain further healing, through the Wounded Heart Group. May you continue to heal and claim the victory that is completely yours through our Lord.
ABOUT ME
My name is Evelyn, and in, 2005, I became a born again believer in Jesus Christ.
I grew up in a Christian home, but my perception of God was that He was a mean vindictive God who punishes you for doing wrong.
As a result of this belief, I spent most of my life feeling and thinking that I was not a very good person because if I were, God would have stopped my abusers from sexually abusing me.
The idea that God was a loving God was very foreign to me and I saw the way I lived as normal and did not realize I was broken, wounded or, that I had a very distorted perception of God and life.
In fact, before I committed my life to Christ in 2005, I use to make fun of and condemn anyone who called themselves ‘born again Christians’.
I use to say things like "how can you crawl back into your mother’s womb"; "you’re brainwashed into believing all this Christian fanatic junk". Imagine my surprise, when I began studying the Bible and found Jesus answering this very question on being born again (see John 3:1-5).
What drove me to becoming a born again believer?
I wasn’t consciously looking to become a ‘born again believer’. It was a period in my life when I was very depressed; nothing made sense anymore. I was angry all the time. I didn’t understand why I always felt like a little girl standing outside the glass window, looking at all the beautiful people inside having fun, wanting to be part of it, but, not knowing how to be invited in, not knowing what to do to fit in.
To compensate for the feelings of never fitting in, I became a very angry, arrogant person. In fact, I gained the reputation as someone most wouldn’t want to tangle with. These were not good qualities to have because it meant, people began avoiding me; I missed out on job promotions and relationships that I could have enjoyed had I possessed a better attitude.
In January 2005, I began feeling that there had to be more to life, especially when I saw others having fun and hearing them talk about a loving God. That same month, I began searching the Bible for answers because I felt I had nothing to lose.
This quest for something more or better caused me to realize that I was a phony Christian.
I was always doing what was right, going through the motions, making up my own rules to suit my beliefs of the moment, all the while, hiding the fact that I was depressed, unhappy and joyless, just to name a few of the problems I was hiding or in denial about.
It was through studying the Bible, asking questions and, struggling with God on those issues that did not make sense, that I began to realize that my perceptions and beliefs were very distorted especially, when I began obtaining answers and healing on some of the things I was struggling with.
The most prominent struggles were the lies I believed. Lies that said “I cannot depend on others, the only person I can count on is myself because no one really cares or loves me enough to be there for me.” {“John 10:10 (NLT) The thief’s purpose is to steal and kill and destroy. My purpose is to give them a rich and satisfying life”.}
Consequently, my quest for something more or better led me to a place, where I was able to publicly declare Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior and to acknowledge my belief that God raised Him from the dead.
As a result, it was because of this new found declaration and belief that I was able to openly and publicly testify about my born-again experience during an act of water baptism on May 1st, 2005.
My reason for being water baptized was to portray an outward sign and testimony of an inward change. It was a symbol that I was ready to die to my old life and ready to embrace a new one in Christ Jesus.(Galatians 2:20; Romans 6:4).
For a more detailed summary of my testimony please go to the Testimony section of this webpage.